It’s been over a month since I last raided.
Last week, I was thinking that it had been a month, and then I spent the whole week in between then and now trying to figure out how I feel about that. I’m still not sure I’ve pinned anything down, so you all get a pointless post wherein I put it all down on the page so that I can come to some sort of conclusion.
It’s just how I process things sometimes.
I do know that I am not terribly upset over this state of affairs. As I told the other mage last week, LFR has done its bit – along with Wrathion’s
insane demands for me to earn 6000 VP assistance – to ensure that I’ve seen all the content multiple times, even if it is on ez-mode. I’ve seen it enough times to get sick of it and haven’t been able to bring myself to queue for LFR anything in the same amount of time I’ve been not raiding normal modes with my guild.
At the same time, I do miss raiding with my guild. It’s about the only time there are more than three or four people online at the same time and while raiding tends to happen in near-perfect silence, there is always some banter being typed into raid chat. Even without chatter of any kind, there is a camaraderie to raiding with one’s guild that comes from just doing something together.
Most of my game time is spent alone these days, and I tend to be okay with that. I’m enjoying my QuATT characters and deliberately seek out time on them each week, because I do value the solo questing time. If I am doing something with someone else, it’s typically with At. We do dailies together most days, and have a couple paired alts that we’re leveling. Just yesterday we spent an hour or two chain running LFD on our level 67 druids. We’re both bears and dual tank the instances, having fun with massive pulls and all that glorious AoE damage.
My time in WoW is good. I enjoy what I am doing. I’ve definitely learned to not do things I don’t enjoy on characters I don’t enjoy or play with people that I don’t enjoy. But there’s still that something missing, and I think it’s the feeling of teamwork you get from working together with your guild. I think it’s doing something bigger than achieving goals that are only mine, and not shared by more people.
I’m hoping raiding will pick back up soon, even though I know I can be happy enough without it. I’m hoping Real Life will stop critting my guild mates in the face. And in the meantime, I might need to get back into big group activities in some format.
Ah, but that is perhaps a post for another day. My ideas about that are maybe a little less obvious than one might think.