Saga recently had her one year blogoversary (grats Saga!) and offered up topics for posts as has become customary among many WoW-bloggers. I asked for one, feeling guilty that all my writing efforts have not gone towards this space since I have not been playing much.
Anyway, for a topic.. hmm.. How about writing one about what it’s like being in a guild with so many bloggers? Do you ever feel like you have to play extra well because if you fail it will be all over the intrawebs? Or is it all just awesome because you all share a second interest, other than WoW, which means you’re more kindred spirits than normally one would see with guildies?
The above was my prompt and I find it hits home nicely in several ways. I don’t fear failing in game and having my name smeared because I happened to end up with a lot of super cool people who just aren’t inclined to point fingers and get all hysterical about their GM making mistakes. Which is fortunate for me because I totally do.
But is it all awesome? Well, yes and no. What I really think it is, is freaking weird. I keep it well in mind that many people joined because Zel and Rhii are super awesome and have bigger audiences than my own, but still… it’s sort of my guild and my dream and seeing anyone attracted to one’s vision is an odd feeling.
The part that makes everything so awesome is actually not that we blog, but that we have similar goals and ideas about what raiding should look like. When I was in WWAB, I felt nearly alone in my progression goals and like I had to push a particularly stubborn donkey uphill to down end game content. In Eff, we all want to punch Deathwing in the face – but we also all have real lives that do take priority in various ways.
I recall writing that I felt as though so many people in the blogosphere had these awesome guilds that were able to be on the same page progression-wise and I wanted to be a situation where people were willing to put in some effort for the same thing. I was so envious back then and now I do have that. We’re not breezing through content by any means, but there are improvements from week to week and when we understand a concept, we really have it. Two kills is as good as farm status for us, which means we are getting our kills through good execution and not just dumb luck.
But getting back to the fact that there are so many bloggers in our ranks – I can say I do get an enormous kick out of it most days. Now that I have sorted my blogroll into various folders for the sidebar, I realize just how much I see posts from Raiding and Casual Effers. And I get this glow of pride whenever one of them posts about the server, let alone the guild. Because I feel we’ve built a home here.
There have been times when I’ve done more teeth-gnashing than grinning though. Like when Mr. Butt joined the guild and blogged about it. That was more exposure than I thought we would ever get and I had laughed hysterically when all the people in my guild told me they were trying to recruit him. It was short-lived, his being here, but I still feel a sense of pride that it was my guild and these friends that gave so venerable a blogger a new sense of excitement and life about the game.
But I also freaked out at the time because while I love having more casual players be a part of this guild, we do have a focus on raiding. And I didn’t want to be SAN 2.0 and lose sight of that, no matter how much I liked the idea of SAN.
Overall, I can’t help but compare Eff to WWAB overall in terms of bloggers. For whatever reason, most people seriously freaked out when Zel and Gnoble joined WWAB. I can see how it might have been odd for strangers to come into the guild and still share all this history with the GM. We probably laughed over things no one else understood. But the resistance to trying to be a part of the world of WoW bloggers is something I still don’t understand to this day. And I lost friendships over it.
But I gained many more.
It’s not an equal or perfect tradeoff in terms of relationships, but it has been very relaxing in many ways to know that my guild is also a part of my audience and I am part of their audience. There’s a level of support there that I could never have gotten from WWAB, much as I loved those people and felt they were supportive of my reign of terror.
But then there’s the strangeness again. Sometimes I wonder why we have guild forums when half of the time our issues get turned into blog fodder anyhow. Not that I resent it at all, and I am just as responsible as the next person for taking something to the blog rather than the forums. There is a feeling of our whole guild being pinned to a cork board and dissected for the rest of the community to see and to judge, though. And that is passing strange.
As anyone can see, I don’t have a really clear answer about how it is to be in a guild with so many bloggers. But I will say that I think any cons that might exist are far, far outweighed by the pros. I would not trade it for anything, not even the glory days of WWAB when all seemed bright and wonderful.
Why? Because there is so much less room for secrets here. And so much more equality. Even when it’s strange or it hurts, I can’t help but feel but that the intimacy is only going to make us a stronger, better group of players.
And that, my friends, is worth hanging onto.